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Showing posts with label believe. Show all posts
Showing posts with label believe. Show all posts

Saturday, December 3, 2016

Give up or Surrender?

Many have asked, have you tried the many many possible methods like the Chinese traditional ways, IVF, medical procedures etc?
My answer is, yes we have tried in our own ways and yes there are medical limitations.

Why didn't we go for IVF?
Firstly, yes IVF have helped many people, but I think IVF is not a solution to everything and everyone? As much as it has helped many, there were even more who didn't work out that are not spoken of. In fact, many people whom i know only got pregnant after giving up trying IVF.

Some asked, why would we chose to adopt and not wait for our own miracle child?
Is it because we no longer have faith that God can bless us with a child of our own?
Did we adopt because we have given up trying?
We have faith that God will bless us with our miracle child and we still believe. We are still praying and trusting God. The decision to adopt has nothing to do with our faith and trust in God. We will and have not given up.
So why did we choose to adopt?
We will share in the next post :)

Sunday, November 30, 2014

55-years to a miracle

Based on a true story.

55 years ago, a daughter was born to the family. However, on the 3 days she was given away to an adopting parents. In those times, life in Singapore was not really easy. After world war 2, Singapore took awhile to rebuild. Those were the years where Singapore, from Japanese occupation became under British colonial and then to become part of Malaysia... And eventually come out independent in the year 1965.

She was the 3rd child of the family, shortly after a brother who is slightly a year older than her. Having a hard life, the decision was made with the intention that she will live a better life with her adopted parents. However, things did not turn out the way her mother expected. At least not exactly how she thought it would be.

After giving her away, the mother regretted and secretly went to visit her baby girl. Some times she would even bring her older children along to find her and bring gifts, hoping to see her. But to no avail at all, as the adopting parents refused to allow them to meet and warned her to stop visiting.

This girl grew up with step-siblings who looked down on her and abused her, knowing that she is an adopted child. She would wake up early morning to do the laundry and all the necessary housework, going to the market etc before going to school. And eventually into her working years and her dating years and then to marriage. Things did not turn any better still. Instead the bias-ness of the adopted mother towards her and her step-siblings got even more obvious and direct.

Things only took a slight turn at her 40th year, where on a work trip, she met Jesus and was healed of her sinus that was with her since birth. There she give her life to Christ. After the trip, she was not sure if her adopted mother would allow her to attend church, as they had been very staunched Buddhist. But God did a work in her heart and the adopted mother allowed her to attend church.

Praying for the salvation of the adopted mother, she took got saved after a few years of constant loving her despite of how she would treat her and the some times hurtful words that she would use against her.

All the way into the late years of the adopted mother, she stayed by her side, working hard to pay off all her medical bills and expenses all by herself. She did not complain. There are nights where she would cry herself to sleep, feeling all alone in this and hoping for siblings who would stand by her.

At her 47th year, her adopted mother went to be with The Lord. Being faithful to God, she brought her children up in the way of The Lord, to the best of her abilities. 

2 months back, after a service in church, a church sister prophesied that a miracle will happen in her life. Being child-like in her faith, she believed that a miracle will happen! On her way home with another church sister, they took the MRT. Halfway though the journey, she notied someone smiling at her. Feeling uneasy about strangers smiling at her since young, she turned her back away.

At her station when she got off the train, the same lady ran up to her! And said,
"Do you use to live at ********?"
So she replied, "why do you ask?"
The lady then said that "I'm looking for my lost 2nd sister, who was given away"
Still feeling unsure, she asked for the name of the biological mother of this lady, because all she knew about her biological family is only the name of her mother.
When the lady mentioned the name of her mother, she knew that the name is the name of her biological mother. With great joy, they sat down and chatted!

So still confused at the boldness of this lady, her sister. She asked how is she so sure that she is her sister, and that she would approach her?
This lady said that she looked like their eldest sister and the way she talk looks like her younger sister. She has been looking for her sister all her life and she know that she cannot miss this opportunity! Hence, the boldness to approach her. There's a total of 4 sisters, including the girl. And they have another 4 brothers.

For all her life, she did not know about her biological mother's visits when she was young. Growing up feeling rejected and unwanted, now she is restored to a very big family of 8 siblings! The following day, she met up with all the sisters and the following week with all the siblings! They checked the birth cert and etc and confirmed that they are biological siblings! Indeed, it is a miracle! There are many people who tried looking for their biological family through medias and various methods but to no avail, and yet God did such a great miracle! Because of her simple faith in the spoken word!

After reuniting, the siblings told her that all the days of the life of her biological mother, she had been regretting that she gave her away and told all of them that they had a lost sister who was given away. And told them to look for her and don't stop looking for her! Unfortunately, her biological mother passed away shortly after she moved out of the old residential place. Due to the lost of contact or knowing her whereabouts after the move, as she totally had no idea where her daughter had moved to, she went into depression and passed away shortly.

Hearing all these, brought tears to her eyes, knowing that the mother had never stopped looking for her. The love of the biological parents and siblings came rushing into her heart and God did a healing work. Though it took 55 years, it's a miracle as great as the pain she had went through. God heard all her silent tears and crying out for siblings who would standby her. He did not give her 1, not 2... But a total of 7 siblings! And her siblings loved her so much and would stood by her anytime! Her usual uneventful weekends all her life, suddenly are filled with much family events and family time with her siblings!

I know this is true because it's my family story... God is a miracle working God, if you will only believe!

Sunday, September 1, 2013

Friend or foe

This has always been a question in my mind. I'm not sure if I am over thinking or does anyone thinks about this as much as I do. I think I review this all the time especially with all the recent happenings. But still I guess some things never change and some things do change over time.

There's a saying in the Chinese, that "friends keep you close, but enemies keep you closer".
Have you ever felt like you are not sure whether someone is a friend or a foe?

Of course this don't happen to me all the time but a few times/person I guess. Friends who are so close but yet they give you a vibe that is strange, sending a shiver down your spine and leave you wondering... I always believe in giving people a 2nd chance or the benefit of doubt, believing that over time things will change!

There are friendships that I will say that I am willing to protect with my life, because I believe that friendship has got eternal value. But I guess if Jesus had judas and He still loved him till the cross, I need to accept the fact that there will always be people who are close to you for a different motive and may even deliver you to the cross. 

It takes more than just love to lay down your life for those who persecute you and sent you to the cross. It takes the perfect love of God, agape.

Friday, May 10, 2013

I believe!


We are going to be the biggest news in the next few days, City Harvest Church, CHC.

But in view of all and what is going to be ahead, i can only say that i believed, i believe and i'm still believing!

I was here, 13 years ago when we were still meeting at the old hollywood theatre. Back then, we were less than 8,000 people. i saw how the church love and contributed to the community. In the days of my youth, i was taught that what makes a christian from the rest is that when we make a mistake, we do not push and we do not blame, we take responsibility and we grow. Is it possible to never ever make a mistake? Let he who has no sin cast the first stone.

It was also then where we started the project 'Church without walls' and going beyond the 4 walls of the church, we entered the lives of many who are I.D and disabled. Giving them warm and a brand new meaning to life. Giving their family members a new hope and emotional support. Many lives were touched, and changed.

2003, we started the crossover project. Is it just the decision of the leaders or our senior pastor, kong hee? i would say, it is our project. This is our church, this is our crossover, this is our project and this is our decision. Just like many other projects whether is it to build schools or orphanages, the purpose was to touch and change lives.

In this journey, i went for quite a couple of the trips and each time, it move me to tears standing there in the midst of the concert or event, see the many lives changed. The smile, the joy and the hope that was put on the people's face once again.

Though much will be said on the first round of the court hearing starting this coming wednesday, 15th May. I will say, i trust in the integrity of our leaders that nothing was used for personal gains and no money was 'lost' as mentioned by the media.

I believed, i believe and i'm still believing!

Monday, November 5, 2012

Touched. Moved.

Just read a blog that brought tears to my eyes.

I wish I could have known how you felt all along so I could be there to understand what you were going through better.

I wished I could have understand and know how all of you felt and what all of you are going through so I could be a lot more understanding.
I want to stop thinking that I know it all because I know I don't!
It is not about me, it's all about you.

I thought I lived the best I know how, till I realized the things you were going through.
I pray I'll move.
My heart, to pray for every single one of you, for all that you are going through.
To believe with you, the kinda dreams you have!
To live, to laugh and to love together.


Honestly, I missed the times we had.
Now that all of you are busying about things you care, maybe it was me who did not care enough.
I want to be apart, I want to be there.
Walking through the pain and sharing all the joy.
Lord, teach me how to care.
Not so that you will obey, but just so that I can be there.

Thanks for opening up and sharing with me your life, because it really mattered to me.
As much as how it all mattered to you. It really does to me.
I'll be praying together with you, believing for that future you hold.
I know you will make it through, no matter how bad the storm may seems.
The time will come, when everything will be made beauty in His time.
I know and I'm sure.