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Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Endure!

The wait was long but if you will endure till the end, you will see the light to the tunnel!


I filed my case with paypal on the 4th May. Today i got the email that i have been waiting for the past 53 days!

The journey was tough.
Rough and rocky, filled with threats from seller and uncertainties ahead.

Let's recap:
- Purchased a bag fo€265.50, on 24th April
- Received the bag and realised it was a fake
- Contacted seller but response was irresponsible
- Tried to file a case with Ebay, but item is not protected under Ebay protection
- Redirected to Paypal (only if you paid with Paypal)
- Filed a case with Paypal to communicate with seller, monitored by Paypal
- Still no response from seller, so escalated case to a claim
- Seller wants to come to term with me that in the event i got to post the item back and forfeit all the shipping cost, i won't get back much as well
- Considering to compromise
- Read somewhere on Paypal website that in some cases where it is proved that seller sold a fake, it is possible to recover the full amount including what you paid for postage!
- Communicated with the seller on this to see if he is willing to offer to refund my full amount excluding postage cost for sending item over
- Seller responded rudely to say that there is no such thing that Paypal will refund me the amount and threaten to not refund me anything
- Waited patiently for Paypal's review
- Requested by Paypal to destroy or discard the item and submit a document to verify
- Got it done immediately and sent to Paypal
- Got my reply from Paypal that the money has been FULLY refunded back to me!

Do not be afraid of Ebay bullies! In the event if they do sell you a fake, do not compromise to accept it unless you want to. Do not give in just because the seller says that they will refuse to refund you, because in this case, they don't have a say! All evidences and documents will be examined by Paypal, for truth and justice shall stand!

Washing of the heart


Last week Pastor Tan shared on The Tabernacle and one of the items found in the tabernacle is the Bronze Laver.

Exodus 30:17-21
The Bronze Laver is to be place between the tabernacle of meeting and the altar, filled with water for Aaron and his sons to wash their hands and their feet
Water is often a symbol of the Holy Spirit and the word of God
Vs 20. Aaron and his sons are to wash after ministering and before minister, lest they die
Whenever there is a double emphasis in the bible, it means it is really serious.
vs 21. the Lord emphasised saying, so they shall wash their hands and feet, lest they die.

The washing of feet in comparison to Jesus' times when He wash the feet of the disciples, is for the cleansing and making whole, to be completely clean.

John 13:8 
Jesus said to Peter, "if I do not wash your feet, you have no part with me"

It is a constant choice that Aaron and his sons have to make to come and wash themselves at the Bronze Laver. Not just themselves, but the bible say that it shall be a statute forever to them and their descendants throughout their generations!

However, this washing of hands and feet is the symbol of something deeper, it is the washing of our hearts. And this washing cannot be washed by anything else, other than the Holy Spirit and the word of God. We are to wash ourselves in the Holy Spirit and the word of God each time before and after we minister!

What do our hearts have to be washed of?
Matthew 6:24 and Luke 16:13 (AMP)
You cannot serve God and mammon for you will love one and despite the other.
Mammon - deceitful riches, money, possessions or anything in which you trust and on which you rely
Pastor Bob said that in chinese, it means "怀二以" - Your heart is no longer loyal to ONE.

Matthew 12:25
"Every kingdom divided against itself is brought to desolation, and every city or house divided against itself will not stand"

This applies even to our individual life, if we are not ONE, we "怀二以" on the inside of us, then we will also not stand.

Matthew 5:37
"But let your 'yes' be 'yes' and your 'no' be 'no'. For whatever is more than these is from the evil one."

Many times in the bible, the fall of someone is when their heart is no longer ONE unto the Lord, they have allowed mammon into their hearts.
Take for example, Saul was not taken over by David as king because God has raised up another leader or because David tries to do something to take that position from him. Saul was taken over because he had allows mammon to enter his heart.
In 1 Samuel 10:9, when Saul was anointed king, the Lord gave him a 'new heart'

But what was Saul problem?
#1: He was lack of confidence and self-esteem
The bible says that " there was no one like him among all the people"; "from his shoulder upwards he was taller than any of the people"; "not a more handsome person than he among the children of israel", but yet at the point of proclaiming him as king, he hid among the equipment

Like what Weifang shared last week, God has a call in our lives and it is irrevocable, so what are we doing about our callings?
If you were there for the last 40-night prayer meeting with Pastor Tan, he talked about the inheriting of the land.
At first, the 9 and a half tribe were allocated to 10.5% each to the Western part. But because they did not 'receive' the inheritance though it was 'given', the 2 and half tribe that went in took up in total with the other 2 and half tribes, 75% of the whole land of Israel. Leaving only 25% to be shared among the remaining 7 tribes.
I can imagine the 7 tribes must be complaining that it is unfair that the 2 and half tribes took more than that which was allocated to them!
Yes the call of God that was 'given' is irrevocable, but until we stretch out our hands to 'receive' it, we still have not 'inherited' the promise!

Maybe just like Saul, we are feeling that we are not good enough to lead. What we need is a revelation that we are leading through God and in His authority, not our own.
Very often I feel like I am not good enough, example when pastor ask the leaders to go out and pray for the people or sometimes when in ministering to the members in CG but most of the time we will feel like this is because we have not washed our hands and our feet before and after we minister!
According to Pastor Tan, this is known as a spiritual heart condition!
Therefore, we need to wash ourselves every time before and after we minister, with the Holy Spirit and the word of God, lest we die (not just referring to a physical death, but a spiritual death that leads to eternal death)

#2: He allowed the mammon of approval of men rather than the approval of God to enter him
Saul offer up the unlawful sacrifice that he should not have done as a king because he was afraid the people scattered from him, he felt compelled
Later part in 1 Samuel 15:24 when Saul sinned against the Lord again, he said "because I feared the people and obeyed their voices"
Galatians 1:10 "For do I now persuade men, or God? Or do I seek to please men? For if I still pleased men, I would not be a bondservant of Christ."
Sometimes it can be very easy to fall into this trap of doing more, studying harder, working more or even serving more, just to wish to hear the praises of our parents, bosses or leaders over our lives
As leaders, sometimes we end up not discipling the members because we were 'afraid' that they would be scattered from us
There is a difference between honoring our leaders, our parents, our bosses versus seeking the approval of men

Recently I was watching a TV series about this lady who often does work beyond her call of duty and with great excellence. She always tries to impress her boss just so that the boss will praise her, but the boss never did. She did EVEN MORE, not connecting well with other colleagues because she always tries to be better and more superior over them. One day, she passed her, done beyond the call of duty, work to the boss but instead of being praised the boss said that she should think carefully whether it is necessary before doing it. She could not hold it back anymore she broke out in tears and said that she was only hoping to hear her praises and approval but the boss said this, "If you are doing everything just to get my approval, then you are missing the whole point"

We can be doing the same thing but with a different motivation, ask yourself what is the driving motivation for you to be hanging on or even striving on?
If your aim is the approval of men, then when you do not receive the kind of approval you are expecting, you will be discouraged and give up. But if you motivation is to please God, know that whatever you do and are not rewarded on earth, you will be rewarded in heaven!

3 times in Matthew 6, Jesus talked about this:
vs 1 "Take heed that you do not do your charitable deeds before men, to be seen by them. Otherwise you have no reward from your Father in heaven."
vs 5 "And when you pray, you shall not be like the hypocrites. For they love to pray standing in the synagogues and on the corners of the streets that they may be seen by men. Assuredly, I say to you, they have their reward."
vs 16-18 "Moreover, when you fast, do not be like the hypocrites, with a sad countenance. For they disfigure their faces that they may appear to men to be fasting. Assuredly, I say to you, they have their reward. But you, when you fast, anoint your head and wash your face, so that you do not appear to men to be fasting. but to your Father who is in the secret place; and your Father who sees in secret will reward you openly."
After talking about these, Jesus went on to talk about laying up for yourselves the treasures in heaven and where our treasure is, there our hearts will be!
If your treasures are in the rewards on earth, found in the approval of men, then there your heart will be!
If you work tirelessly with excellence but have not receive your reward on earth, be of good cheers for your rewards are treasure stored in heaven!
Aaron and his sons are required to wash themselves before and after they serve, so as to remind themselves that the ministry they do is to serve the people for the glory of God and not for their own glory; therefore they must wash lest they die (spiritual death that leads to eternal death)

#3: He was not consistent in his obedience unto the Lord and did not obey ALL THE WAY
Saul brought back the best of the spoil to sacrifice to God and spared Agag king of the Amalekites, despite the word of God was to utterly destroy them.
What is mammon again?
Mammon - deceitful riches, money, possessions or anything in which you trust and on which you rely
When Saul was destroying the livestock of the Amelakites, his heart was moved to keep the best, though he used it for the sacrifice unto the Lord, but what did Samuel say about this?

1 Samuel 15:22-23 "Has the Lord as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices, as in obeying the voice of the Lord? Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice. And to heed then the fat of rams. For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is a iniquity and idolatry. Because you have rejected the word of the Lord, He also has rejected you from being king."

Saul started out obeying the Lord, but he did not obey all the way! 
Are your heart moved by the riches that the world can offer? 
This does not mean that we cannot excel in the marketplace or work to earn money but it is about, what is the word of God for us. The bible says, obedience is better than sacrifice!
Just this week, Pastor Kong was saying, "With God NOTHING will be impossible"
Nothing in greek means no-pas-rehma = "with God no any spoken word will be impossible!"
But the world says, without money all things are impossible
So which do you rely on?
Saul was no longer ONE inside him, because he was divided and just as we saw earlier in Matthew 12:25 that whatever is divided against itself will not stand!
Later part in 1 Samuel 28, vs 2 we see that Saul after the death of Samuel, put all the mediums and spiritists out of the land. But in vs 7, he went to a medium to inquire of her for the Lord did not answer him through dreams or prophets.
Saul obeyed the Lord, but he did not obey all the way!
Aaron and his sons have to make a decision to obey the Lord in the washing of their hands and feet before and after they minister all the days of their lives, to obey the Lord all the way!

#4: He had a competitive spirit
1 Samuel 18:7-11 Saul tries to kill David twice simply because the people sang "Saul has slain his thousands and David his ten thousands."
No one can take over our place just because they are better or have done more. Saul was replaced and rejected not because David is winning the people to himself.
But God raised up for Himself another king, David, because Saul did not obey His word and was rejected
To each of us, we all have our individual callings and none of us rise up above another by putting each other down (the system of the world)
It is not about who is better or who had done more, but all authority comes from above!
When we have a right heart and a right attitude, God will rise us up at the appointed time

The bible say that we are to be as ONE and united in our knowing of the Lord, through the share our revelations and grow together in our knowing of the Lord!
Therefore let us encourage one another and grow as ONE in our knowing of the Lord and remind one another to wash ourselves constantly at Bronze Laver!

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Tests in our lives

Every situation in life, is a lesson to learn.
Very often this learning attitude will determine how well you 'pass' or 'fail' the test.

Like we often said, your attitude determines your altitude!

Talking about test, i think our lives are filled with test from the very day we know to make sense of anything.
Almost when you couldn't even remember, we are often tested on our integrity and moral principals like,
- did you take the cookies from the cookies jag?
- who broke the glasses?
- did you take any cold drinks in school?
- have you finish your homework? (Most of the time when you are catching your favourite TV series or cartoon show)
even in little things like this, the test had already begun.

When we entered pre-school, the termly test known as exams begun. It remains constant for almost a huge fraction of our lives. To many, it seems unnecessary but to me, i think it prepares us for the real test in life.

One thing i learn about test are,
IF YOU FAIL, YOU WILL HAVE TO SIT FOR IT AGAIN!
Are you tested in your love for people? Trust in God? perseverance through difficult times?
Know that we have a God who is more interested in our character than comfort!
The grace is, you get to sit for the test AGAIN!
The way to pass is not depending on your own strength but the grace of God is sufficient for you!

You only move on after you actually pass the test.
I believe in every situation, God is testing both the tester and the testee.
The tester is often the one tested with bitterness and hurt, who in turn tries to hurt or put the testee through a trial due to that hurt or pain he explained that was not deal with properly; temptation to betray to protect oneself or for the benefit of one.
Whilst the test for the testee is how he/she will handle the situation without feeling bitter about the tester, but yet in all, choose to love.

Recently, even before these incidents happened, God spoke to me when i am in the bathroom, as always.
I was feeling a lot about this and about that and sometimes felt that certain things someone did, can be done better etc.
I guess it's just human, but God came and said to me that, the reason why He allowed me to feel a certain way is not so that i can be complaining all day, but to the change agent!
Be the one to make a change!

If there's a way to make the world a better place, it always begins with the man in the mirror!
So i decided that i want to start something NEW called 'Celebrating your success!' where we can come together to support and share the joy of one another's success!
Sometimes it can be quite emotional when you feel that no one is sharing your joy.
We will be there not just for the good times but we will also be there for the bad times!

Lord, strengthen me that i can be the change agent and make this family a better place, a place where we can be united to know you more!

Eyeliner Magic

Have you caught the latest eyeliner makeup?
Not just easier than putting eyeshadow, it gives a bold and stronger statement than normal eyeshadows!
If you are bold enough, you can stack up to 3 or more colours!
Usually i will start the first layer, the lowest layer with my long lasting and waterproof Majolica Majorca eyeliner!
Be patient to wait for the first layer to dry before you start drawing the next colour. I love the range of colours Sephora have. You can check them out!


Friday, June 21, 2013

Choosing the path

With the most recent thing i read, i think i felt even more than how i felt about the haze PSI that went up to 401. I guess there is no right or wrong, just different perspective of issues. When people are, there will always be different views and understanding of things i guess.

What i just read did not cause me to feel waived or doubt the church at all. In fact, it cause me to feel like i probably could understand what he is going through. I was on that path a short while back.


In life, there are always many paths. The broad way and the narrow way. Usually it is harder to stay on the right path than to go astray. Situations may happen, but it is how we response that God is looking at. People may be in the same situation but sitting for a different test.

The truth is for us to choose to love and show mercy despite of the shortcomings, not for us to judge. Christ did not come to judge but to save those who are lost. 

We are saved by love, for love.

*Praying that the love of God will move and soften the hardened heart*

Wednesday, June 19, 2013

Paypal save?

Save? or Safe? Was that a typo? I'll explain why.

With the constant increase of online shopping and payment across the nations with different currencies, paypal has emerged as one of the most trusted way of making payment!

Just a few years back, people are so scare to do transactions online or to give people their credit card number as credit card frauds was a norm. However, with the growing e-commence network, credit card companies have stepped up in their security. Paypal came forth as a very secure payment mode and gain the trust of many!

Recently i wrote a post on 'Ebay Frauds?' with my personal encounter with fraud activities on Ebay. Even though prevention is better than cure, sometimes a cure is still needed. I wrote about how to prevent being fraud by fraudsters who are out to cheat us of our trust in what they have posted.

In this case, Paypal served as my 2nd row of defense. For some reason, i could not raise the issue to Ebay as the item is not under the Ebay buyer protection, even though it is different from what was described under listing. Thank God i made payment with Paypal and i could still raise the issue to paypal!

What are the steps to take?
1) Go to Paypal - Resolution Centre
2) Opening the case in Paypal with the paypal transaction number that can be found under your paypal transaction history list
3) Contact seller through this Paypal case, that will be recorded and monitored by Paypal
4) In the event seller do not reply or you could not come to term with seller, you may 'escalate to claim'. Note that when you take this step, the case is no longer in your hands or the hands of the seller. The money will be freeze with Paypal and it goes to no one until Paypal reviews the case and determine who will get the money
5) Paypal will contact you via emails for actions needed or information needed on your part. In my case, Paypal required for a letter to verify that i have discarded or destroyed the item. I guess the request was quite drastic, instead of request for a return, because the item was an imitation or fake of a branded
6) If you did not receive the email within 2 weeks after escalating the claim, do not hesitate to drop them an email to check the status of the case. In my case, my email had issues receiving system generated emails from them and i waited for a month before doing so. You do not have to wait that long to email them to check
7) Do as Paypal requires you to, and send them the information needed
8) Wait patiently for Paypal to review the case and they will get back to you shortly!

Paypal saves!

Monday, June 17, 2013

7 facts i say to myself when kana hit

I realised i wrote this in 2009 but it was saved in my draft! Enjoy!

haha
this is a very silly but effective 7 facts for myself to remember
so each time the devil tries to hit me down
these are the 7 things that i will say to myself
to get back into my senses and back to normal

but thought of getting it into a list
cuz recently keep kana hit down
and sometimes the time needed to pick myself up gets a bit too long
then will affect the people around me also
so decided to state them
you can try saying them to yourself too
=P

7 FACTS:
1. the devil is stupid, there's no room for argument de
2. he cannot think of better ways of attacking meh =.=
3. i will not let down my hedge of protection de hor
4. i know his stupid tricks and i wont fall for them de rite
5. i am so smart and sharp in the spirit, i'm sure the devil wont get me with this de =)
6. most importantly, God's Will will stand~!
7. and all things will work out for my good!
=D

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Mercy and not sacrifice

"Learn what I mean by "I desire mercy and not sacrifice"" Jesus said.

This verse has been ringing in my head. I seems like a fairly easy verse but yet Jesus replied this same verse a couple of times in His 3 and a half years of ministry and emphasized by the disciples in the gospels.

Today, i woke up praying and reading the bible that God is our deliverer and He will stretch out His hand to us. Ending off, i was reminded of "I desire mercy and not sacrifice" again.

Giving mercy seems to be quite an easy task, when no one is 'stepping on your toes'.

Showing mercy becomes tough with the very same person just keeps 'stepping on your toes' over and over again and yet still insist they are right.

When i was just a student, doing well is an individual thing. You cannot blame others for your results and you cannot do better by putting others down. But in the world, people goes up only when others comes down. Its amazing to see how people put others down just so that they can go up. Whether is it just in terms of position or ranks, sometimes people do it even for emotional elevation, to make themselves feel that they are better than others.

This week i was watching Dr. OZ and he was talking about bullies. Tera was on the show and she said this "most of the time the person who bullies often has an issue themselves and by putting others down, they are trying to draw confident to themselves" and "most of the time, the bullies are hurting more than you are, on the inside"

It is human to sometimes want to complain. I am human.
But to show mercy is not just an 'act' of kindness to the person, but it is also not to speak evil of the person. Sometimes it may not even be speaking 'evil', sometimes it is just the TRUTH. But yet, you still choose not to speak it of that person. That in itself is showing mercy.

Is it really that easy? i guess it is not and it will be a learning process. If it would have been easy, Jesus would not need to ask us to LEARN, what He meant by that.

Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Are you a member?

Membership card is one of the common item in our wallets nowadays. They give us shopping and dining privileges to various places and discounts. 
Maybe just like me, you carry a cardholder that holds up to 20 cards apart from your long wallet!
Are these cards really useful? Should we or should we not, have to carry them everywhere we go to ensure that they are within our reach in the event when we need them!
Lets see what are some of the cards i have. Credit cards of 5 different banks, credit cards to specific stores and membership card for different shops and places
It feels like, i do need all of them right?
but membership cards can sometimes go out of hand as the number of shops and places we go just keeps increasing!

First of all questions:
Do these cards really help you to save more? Personally, YES!
There many shops that may sell the same item, and i will only go to the one that i have a membership card with or have credit card promotions.

So what can i do to cut down on some of the cards i have to carry around?
#1: Look through your credit cards and pick out the one that gives you the most rewards, in terms of discounts and also rewards points. Keep to one main card.

Many people overlook the reward points and simply allow them to expire. But do you know that they can add up to quite an amount? I have already redeemed up to USD$300 worth of vouchers from my credit card points.

#2: Credit cards to specific stores should be carried around because they often gives better rebates and discounts compared to membership cards

#3: Take out those membership cards that allow you to redeem with your personal identity card or mobile number, which many of them do nowadays.

#4: Remove those membership cards of stores that you have not visited for more than a year. The chances of you visiting them again is quite slim and very often you don't even remembered that you have the membership card until purchase is already done!

I'm beginning to appreciate places where membership is linked up with our identification card or mobile number because it makes shopping easier and i do not have to always remember to bring out my whole loads of cards when i go out for some shopping.

Saturday, June 1, 2013

Oriental beginning!

Every season is the mark of the new trend. So are you ready for what season is ahead?

No one prepares for winter only when winter comes. No fashionist should be hit by the next wave without first being prepared!

Beginning May, i have been looking at oriental designs and have been quite into them! Then i realized, it is going to be the winter trend 2013! I am prepared, are you?


Below is the heads up of some of the oriental designs coming up by various designers!

Looks like 'winter' is coming earlier for me! I'm totally loving it and i will probably starts this event before the trend hits!
I'm not after trends, i'm living by my style.

For all i know, it always happens to be in trend!