I am her's and she is mine!

2 Days back, we had our first Baby Shower for the relatives. As usual, relatives will have a lot of 'DOs & DON'Ts' for you. But the best advise i heard that day is " you are the parent so you decide what do and what don't".

Some relatives were 'concerned' that family's friends are asking how come they did not see me pregnant and blah blah blah. They told me that i should not let people know that she is adopted, and maybe i should not post her photos so much on social media to avoid questioning and just 'lay low'.

Yes! I did not disappear from my friends and family members; hide from the world; delete my social media for 9-10 months so that people will think that maybe i was pregnant and they did not know, and i will definitely not stop posting photos of Zara or 'lay low'.. 

Because i will not for a moment be ashamed or embarrass of her!

And not for a moment will i ever want her to feel that we are not proud of her!

She is not an accident. 

She is beautifully and wonderfully made in the image of God.

She is chosen, an elect, destined to be placed into this family and into His house (City Harvest Church)

She is now mine and i am her's

She will have everything i had planned and reserved for my child

Nothing less.

Everyday i am reminded of God's mercy and His goodness in her.

I am my Beloved's and my Beloved is mine!

Choosing the path

With the most recent thing i read, i think i felt even more than how i felt about the haze PSI that went up to 401. I guess there is no right or wrong, just different perspective of issues. When people are, there will always be different views and understanding of things i guess.

What i just read did not cause me to feel waived or doubt the church at all. In fact, it cause me to feel like i probably could understand what he is going through. I was on that path a short while back.

In life, there are always many paths. The broad way and the narrow way. Usually it is harder to stay on the right path than to go astray. Situations may happen, but it is how we response that God is looking at. People may be in the same situation but sitting for a different test.

The truth is for us to choose to love and show mercy despite of the shortcomings, not for us to judge. Christ did not come to judge but to save those who are lost. 

We are saved by love, for love.

*Praying that the love of God will move and soften the hardened heart*

Mercy and not sacrifice

"Learn what I mean by "I desire mercy and not sacrifice"" Jesus said.

This verse has been ringing in my head. I seems like a fairly easy verse but yet Jesus replied this same verse a couple of times in His 3 and a half years of ministry and emphasized by the disciples in the gospels.

Today, i woke up praying and reading the bible that God is our deliverer and He will stretch out His hand to us. Ending off, i was reminded of "I desire mercy and not sacrifice" again.

Giving mercy seems to be quite an easy task, when no one is 'stepping on your toes'.

Showing mercy becomes tough with the very same person just keeps 'stepping on your toes' over and over again and yet still insist they are right.

When i was just a student, doing well is an individual thing. You cannot blame others for your results and you cannot do better by putting others down. But in the world, people goes up only when others comes down. Its amazing to see how people put others down just so that they can go up. Whether is it just in terms of position or ranks, sometimes people do it even for emotional elevation, to make themselves feel that they are better than others.

This week i was watching Dr. OZ and he was talking about bullies. Tera was on the show and she said this "most of the time the person who bullies often has an issue themselves and by putting others down, they are trying to draw confident to themselves" and "most of the time, the bullies are hurting more than you are, on the inside"

It is human to sometimes want to complain. I am human.
But to show mercy is not just an 'act' of kindness to the person, but it is also not to speak evil of the person. Sometimes it may not even be speaking 'evil', sometimes it is just the TRUTH. But yet, you still choose not to speak it of that person. That in itself is showing mercy.

Is it really that easy? i guess it is not and it will be a learning process. If it would have been easy, Jesus would not need to ask us to LEARN, what He meant by that.