Expectation management

Feeling rather disturbed today... Started the day feeling very very emotional..

Started off with the build up of emotions and irritation and pressure from this trip... Honestly I never felt like I wanted to go home so much.. I miss my home, my poshie, my husband..

But at the same time, I learnt a important lesson today...

Not everyone is willing and able to share how you feel.... Some people can only share your joy and when things are going smooth and where nothing deep are shared.. And when u really share some things that mean a lot to you, they don't reply or reply with sweeping statements that actually makes you feel worse.. This is why, you cannot share everything with everyone..

What are we really looking for in our sharing? A listening ear, where you know that they really did read your msges... Not feeling like the msges ended up no where... or even, some times replies sounds like it doesn't even require them to have read your msges.. Hahahaha!

Is it really possible to expect others to understand what I am going through? Hahaha I know it is not.. But some times, we just need to feel that we are important and cared for.. And at least there's a reply after reading...

But at the same time, I learnt that people's importance to us in our lives does not equal to our importance to them.. And this is where expectations got to be managed.. Disappoinent happens when we expect something and it doesn't happen..

Expecting a simple reply, a simple reassurance, a simple message to know that you are remembered.... Can result to great disappointment...

Is it possible to live a life with no expectations?

Does it really make one happier?

Should priority be rearranged so that with the drop of importance, the effect and expectations will also be lowered?

And this is not the end... Going for the last dinner together on this trip soon and hoping and praying that it will turn out to be a fine experience... So that I can at least some a bit of good memories with me at the end..