it's ok to be not ok

I have a friend whom once I asked "are you ok?"

And she gave me a really honest response that very often when people ask her that question, she can't tell them that she is not, so she will end up just saying that she is ok..

Since that day, I never asked her that question anymore..

Maybe it's easier for her to feel how she's feeling without her having to answer "ok" whenever someone asked that question.

I just want to say that it's really ok to be not ok.

I'm thankful that she could share that with me

I am not and will not be stumbled, but instead I felt so much love for her because she could be real.

Being in church more than half my life, growing up..

Sometimes it seems like we have to be ok... all the time, every time..

Does being not ok means our faith is low? No!

We don't have to be ok all the time, we can afford to be not ok when it's not ok!

The truth is, no matter how long we have been in church, we will always need to depend on God through the different seasons of our life!

And most of the time, we depend on God more when it's not ok..

The heros of faith too had their struggles..

And today as I was just having this conversation with God..

He said to me, "her faith is so beautiful.. having faith doesn't mean that we will never doubt or be afraid.. having faith doesn't mean that we will never struggle.. but it is in the midst of all these, and yet in simple steps, she put her trust in Me again and again.. bit by bit.. that her faith is so beautiful in My eyes.." and He smiled.

I delicate this post to 'my friend'.

I am not just here in good times, I'll be here all the time.

You are my hero of faith :)