Season of the year...

This is the season of the year again...
to look back and reflect...

2010 had been a really really long year for me...
one word "change", was the only constant...
God really showed me how to trust in Him...
and how His grace is sufficient for me in all situations...

Every area....
EVERY AREA...
was put to the test...
He taught me to give, what we can never keep...
to keep, what we can never lost...
Somethings happen to build...
while others happened to destroy or remove...
ultimately, i know it's all gonna work for my good...

This year, there are also lots of things to thank God for...
In the fire, we see the people that will go through fire with us...
Through the storms, we see the people that will give us a hand...
In spring, we see the people who are really happy for us...
Though many things happened in 2010 and some before 2010...
but this year, i saw the people whom i should really cherish...
some of them i have let down in some ways or another...
but i hope it is not too late for me to realize their importance in my life...

Thanks... (NOT in any order)
Ivan, who always stand by me, to love and to trust me in every situation and no matter what others say about me...
Brother, who is always supportive of my dreams regardless of how much it cost him...
Mother, who always believe in me even when sometimes i don't really know what i want to do...
Weifang, who always quietly supports me and i know will be there whenever i need her...
Jessica, who is my sweet sugar bunny, always bring a smile to me and light up my life even when i am in my darkest time...
Sherin, a long distance friend but yet never fails to hear me online whenever i needed a listening ear...
Jo, who is a leader, a mentor, a friend who i can always turn to for advise...
Shilin, who is always there to encourage and to assure me, a friend who love me for who i am...
Carmen, who is always so willing to help and to love me through her act of service and physical touch...
Nixi, who have been my listening hear through the good and the bad...
Margaret, who always loves and protects the ones whom she loves alot...
My W461 the past and the present, who have kept me going, bringing joy into my life when i see each and everyone of you growing to love the Lord more and being happy in your lives. More than just members, everyone of you are a personal friend to me, thanks for your love...

Thanks to all my Christmas gifts givers!
Ivan - Dress and necklace
Mum - 2 Nike shorts, 1 Nike tights,1 Reebok top
Ivan's mum - Guess bag
Weifang - book
Jessica - Precious Thoughts photo album
Ladylene - Hairband
Yaomin - handmade chocolate
Yuling - Card
Younice and Yuing - Jug of Candy
Evelyn - Card
Marc's mum - Chocolate biscuit from crabtree & evelyn
and all the sweets from various ones!

Lord, after 365 days, 8,760 hours, 525,600 mins and 31,536,000 seconds...
even if every breath i take is praise unto You...
it would still not be enough to show how much i love You...

Love just ain't enough

Sometimes, love just ain't enough...
no matter how much you love...
the person may never love you back as much...
they may never understand what you have done for them...
no matter how much you give and sacrifice...
and when they don't understand...
it makes things worse...
and no matter how you try...
you can never reach that place in their heart...

God loved us so so so much that He is willing to give His son for us...
but yet, to some, He doesn't even have a space in their heart at all...

*Make some space in your heart this Christmas!
There's someone out there loving you... =)

Christmas Shopping...

Hahaha...

Not to buy my own stuff but to get all the gifts exchange presents needed...

and it is FINISH~!

So glad i completed it, so i can shop at ease for other things now.. =)

Counting down to Christmas and i am still not having a Christmas mood...
my wish for Christmas for now is...
Quietness, peace and joy...

beginning to love 1-1 fellowship...
fellowship with people whom i can learn things from...
share my joy and emotions...
people that i can be imperfect with...

God loved me just the way i am...
If God can love me, it's good enough for me...
And God loves you, it's good enough for you too...
God did not gave us Jesus so that the world will become perfect...
and neither did Jesus die for us on the cross so that we can be perfect...
Everything was done so that we can be connected back to God, through love...

Somethings are no longer important...
no longer important...
no longer important to me...

Now i understand how 'Dawson' was feeling...
and the path he chose...

2nd Christmas Present!

I didn't knew i was going to love all these stuff so much!

Well, 2011 is going to be a sporty year!

Apart of the usual dressy and pretty me...

i am going to venture into the sweaty and pinky me!

i can't believe it!

it's gonna be a pink sporty year for me!

Go xiu! Run baby run~!

Thanks mummy! =D

I can't wait to wear all of them!!

Christmas Present and Wish List!

I got my 1st Christmas Present! =D

Blue Chiffon Dress by the brand, Chilli Pepper!

And an Intricate Lace Bib with Beaded Drop and Skull Detail!

I can't wait for them to arrive, even though the projected date or delivery is before 7 Jan. =DD

Thanks for being so willing to spend on me!! ^^

I LOVE U!

Actually it took me quite long to think of what i want.

With all the christmas gift exchange, everyone is coming out with their wish list so that the people getting the prezzies will not have such a hard time...

BUT honestly, i cannot think of what i want too....

People always say women do not know what they want (so true!), but we do know what we don't want!

Hahahahahaha so i am going to write my wish list and include some of the things i don't want.

1) Strictly no skincare or healthcare products, because i have my own and i prefer using my own brands

2) I don't like display items except for precious thoughts figurine and figurines of angels that looks really cute

3) I am quite a control freak, i like to know things but yet i love surprises!

4) I love to buy accessories even though i seldom wear them

5) I love my things to be of the same kind and organize them REALLY REALLY neatly, so if you wanna get me some REALLY nice storage stuff, you probably got to get me one whole set which i would love to have. The best i have seen is this clear transparent accessories storage from "Harry Storage Solutions" i think, Parkway got one and Harbor Front Center got one but it's not cheap

6) I have a special love for Gold and Crystal, won't really wear ring because i already got a diamond one

7) Gothic or Rome style furniture for my new house

8) A Black gothic with crystal center piece seat for my changing room

Attitude determines Altitude

One Life

A sheep...

A dream...

A call..

A commitment...

A lifetime...

I believe in Angels!

Do you believe in angels?

I DO!

and personally i have met the angels in my life.. =)

Thanks ANGELS,

for bringing me to where i am today! =)

Who am I?

I am imperfect, in fact very!
I am not a person who will want to be the best or the top, I just simply tries my best in the things I do..
And I like to be different, I guess it's a designer thing..
Hahaha not sporty, I can TRY, by walking 9km in a 10km run. Not the first in the race but I know I have done my best! :)
It's good enough for me! ;)
I am not the kind who likes the limelight,
in fact I don't mind all the backstage!
That's why I serve in tv, photography and cch last time..
Got be on choir before, but never in drama!
I am not good at talking..
Super C, detailed and always analysize..
So i may sound demanding at times especially when I need things done..
Yupz! My strength are also my weaknesses..
Better with doing backstage stuffs and preparations alone.. Hahahaha!
Alone because I am quite short tempered when deadline draws near.. So I rather be alone and not be upset with anyone or make anyone upset.. =p
Don't ask me to lead if you are not willing to be led because I don't like the "I am trying to be the leader" kinda feel..
I don't mind being a follower and a helper and just listen to instructions and just serve my best.. As long as there are no unreasonable demands, I know I will do my best..
I do tend to give my 2 cents worth of ideas because of my problem with loving to analysis things..
But if you all feel that your ways are better, just go ahead, I will follow..
I am not trying to "lead".. Just share my feelings and thoughts only..
Sometimes I wish I can swallow my 2 cents worth of thoughts.. Seriously..

I am just me..
Simple..
Super imperfect..
Contended to have God!
To be in His purpose even though sometimes I dunno where the path leads to..
Really imperfect, not trying to be perfect.. Just doing my best..
Willing to love with no returns..
A strong heart to go through storms..
Think, analysis, plan.. Too much sometimes..

I thank God for my family, my husband to be, my family in laws to be,
my leader, my friends and my members(the past, the present and the future)..
They dont have to love me..
But I'll love them just the way they are..
Because God have loved a wrecked soul like me..

You are why I sing,
You are why I live...
You are why I love,
You are why I give...
Because everything of me belongs to You! ;)

Lord, thank God You found me,
thank God i found You,
And thank God I have You..
You're more than enough for me! ;)

A LONG day~

The day started at 3:50am! Left home at 4:20am and........

got on a cab who deliberately goes round and round cityhall area and caused my taxi fare to be up to $26...

then all the marathon helpers who keep showing us the wrong directions did not help...

to make things worse, only when we finally found the starting point, the person told us that the 10km run starts at 7:45am... =.=

Thoughts of excuses to go home and not run, came flowing into my mind. But we went to eat mcdonalds and killed some time and we were back on our feets!

WEEEeeeeee~ and i completed it!!!

Well, rested for awhile and got ready to go for Ben's wedding at the Traders Hotel.
I can really say that love is something money cannot buy! No matter how well planned or organized a wedding can be.. It is nothing compared to the spontaneous coming together of all the cousins to sing for the wedding, with nothing pre-planned.. =D