Where to look?

Sometimes i would love to choose to believe that when you sow true friendships, you will gain true friendships... despite the fact that i know my weaknesses and i try to change, sometimes i still feel that there is something that is in between... Just like how sometimes we used to speak about others, somehow you just felt that what goes around does comes around... whether you like it or not...

i guess even Jesus have people against Him, though being perfect, so i am not expecting any less... but when you feel that they are people close to you, that is where is pushes you back into that corner of yours...

it feels really terrible in every sense... and i am sorry to whom i have ever made any comments or remarks against in front of others... i do not mean anything against you.. it was just my way of unwinding at that time...

will you tink of me when you are happy and when you are sad? but isn't that what friends are? i wish you would whenever you needed someone... no matter happy or sad.. i promise i did rejoice and i did weep with you... you just don't know which much it hurts me to see you down and how much i pray for your success... but i know that one day, when we are in heaven, you will know..

guess i should step back into this blogging world where i can share my true feelings without causing anyone to feel or change their impression towards anyone else... to the level of damage it caused, to the level you got to do something to restore it... i guess it takes courage to set things right and i am just gonna do it... I am willing to make restoration to the extend the damage is caused and to that even greater extend of the value of the friendship...

looking back and around... i dunno who is really really true... when you can no longer turn to the left nor to the right, you know that it's time turn back up to Him who has always been there and will always be..

Choices of the past...

Was talking to a few members about getting into relationships and choices... and mentioned about 'you'... and to realized that my last post was about 'you' too...

Reflecting back, everything in life lies with the choices we made, make or will be making... we are where we are today, because along the way we made some choices, no matter right or wrong... but one thing to know, thank God that His grace is still constantly over everyone of us, to give us a 2nd chance in life...

Praying for you to be back with the Lord...

Looking back... Looking forward..

I just read my post at the beginning of last year and i mentioned that 2011 is going to be a year of enlargement, breakthrough and LOVE!

And indeed it has truly been!

2011, the church started talking about LOVE, an element lacking in many of our lives even as christians. I am so so so glad when pastor went into the series of LOVE, choose love, in-reaching to one another etc.. I felt that the people in church are more real and we are able to share our feelings and emotions more than just trying to put up a front of who we were suppose to be...

in the area of my career, i am also enlarging my tents, going back to school to learn beauty and step into really helping my mum with her business.. however, i am still believing for a breakthrough and an enlargement of my fashion business... towards the end of the year, i took up sewing class and made my first dress...

In the CG, we saw many breakthroughs where Fuhong and JunWeng came, Marc and Micah came back to join us... Yaomin, Emily, Cheri and Jolene finally finished their exams and will be able to join us more.. i don't know how to share the kinda joy i have to see them back! Even though many times i think to myself, what is my love language... but i don't see greater joy in me than when i see them back loving God..

Now, we are stepping into 2012...

i believe that this year is a year of building and strengthening.. the love, the businesses, the CG, the members, my walk with God... praying for more ideas and the anointing to make more dresses... and also praying for open doors to have contacts with seamstress too! CG to grow in love and spiritual walk with God.. The coming back of all the backsliders!

If you can believe it, you can have it!