22nd Birthday

22nd Birthday

Hehe sorry ar

took half a month to post the videos and photos up

cuz a bit no time la~

sounds like an excuse actually

=P

anyway this is my birthday video taken on 

my birthday BBQ on the 14th July

hmmm

hahaha

can hear Adam's voice behind saying 

"my phone going to low bat soon le"

so the video not the full thing

but still thanks and credit to him for taking the video

taking down the important moments

=)

2nd year of taking birthday video for me le

hahaha

=D

also the photos very little hor

cuz very obvious i not the one taking the photos rite

so hor the photos are kinda all over the place

and i tink they enjoy keeping the photos and dun give me wor

haha

=.=

so if you are holding on to any photos

love me so much that you dun wanna give me the original copy

just send me a duplicate so i can keep and update the blog also k

wahaha

=X

oohhh

and of course not forgetting the gifts

and my personal message for all of you wor~

EVERYONE:

thanks for coming down and thanks for the note in the CARD

indeed good things comes in small packages wor

wahaha

thanks for all the well wishes

and i will remember all the things you all write de hor

haha

FAMILY:

Thanks for taking leave just to come down

of course not forgetting the ang bao that's always so generous

Hehe

ZONE LEADERS: 

got me a very nice and super l-o-n-g belt

thanks for making time, travelling all the way down 

just to celebrate my birthday with me

it has been great serving with every single one of you

=)

the bag from Rachel, Ivan, Alvin and Wenkai is something different

hmm

formal style

can bring it for formal events la

haha

GIRLS Gang:

Nice shoes~

wahaha 

thanks for planning the BBQ 

making the day free just to be with me

to ensure that i am happy 

i tink our friendship is something anyone would die to have

hahaha

so i thank God for EVERY SINGLE ONE of you

REALLY

=)

GUYS side:

Super nice shoes with a cross in front 

then the back is ribbon to tie to ankle de wor

and a gold Cross necklace 

to add to my precious collection of cross

Super spiritual hor

haha

but very very sorry

i lost the cross necklace

cant find it when i got home

didnt even have the chance to take a picture of it

haix

=(

went back to the HK cafe to find

called them up many times over the week

until the manager and all the staff know me liao

but still cannot find it back wor

haix

anyway still thanks for rushing down from work 

just to celebrate for me

BEST Friend:

thanks for making everything happen

maybe i have never said it

but having you around is already the greatest BLISS~

=D

Access to the Heart

Access to the Heart

"the person that hurt us the most is often the one closest to us"

hence, it is important to know who do we allow into our heart

because once we allow the person into our heart

and if the person hurt us

its no long just a exterior wound le

a cut on the outside might be pain

but it will slowly dry up and heal

medication and exterior help can be used 

to speed up the healing process

yet, if the hurt comes directly from the inside out

it cuts the heart and a closed wound is often harder to heal

no medication or exterior help can help

very often causes internal bleeding 

and it takes a longer time to heal

if not careful

there might be blood clots

that blocks the passage of the blood

affecting the function of the heart

and the longer the wound have been there

the more numb the flesh will become to that hurt

hence to remove that blood clot

there is a need to get intact with the pain again

and very often it is even more painful then how it first got hurt wor

yet, if the blood clot is not removed

it causes the dying of the flesh in that area which is the heart

slowly resulting in the lost of ability to love and feel

so if got hurt le

let it take time to heal

and allow the Lord to come and do a healing work ba

careful not to harbor the hurt or have blood clot wor~

*NOTE: this post is not directed to anyone or any situation, just one of my many random thought processes. in simple terms, a general thought. =)

A Journey With My Father

A Journey With My Father

Went on a journey with My Father last night

like a little girl, with my small tiny hand

i stretched it out to the Lord

holding His warm, loving hands

we started on our walk

First we came to the beach

where the sand is so thin and soft

i smiled at Him as my feet gently sinks into the sand

kinda took my time to walk slowly

enjoying every step i take on the soft, smooth sand

=)

Very quickly we came to another part where the sand got harder

and it's beginning to make me feel a little uncomfortable

trying not the show the frown on my face

i walked on

and soon we reached a rocky area

where big and small sharp rocks are gather

this time it's really painful

trying to minimize the pain caused to my sole

i watched every step i take

trying my best to bear with it

but it came to a point where i cannot bear any longer

so i asked

"Abba, why? Why do we have to go through this? 

isn't the soft sand alot better?"

Gently He looked into my eyes and said

"Girl, did I not created the different foundations of the Earth?

and look, the soft sand is good

but what can I build on it?

these rocks are essential to form the foundation 

of what I am about to build"

He reminded me of the foundations of the Earth

the different layers of sand that forms the foundation

and without the strength of the stronger rock

nothing strong can be built

so He went on

bringing me back to the soft sand

He showed me what would happen if He starts building on it

He placed a strong building on it

and it starts to sink in

as it sits gently on the sand

but as the storms and waves draws near

the building starts to waver due to the lack of foundation

Then with His strong and gentle hands

He took me into His arms and whispered

"Are you all not stronger through it all?

when the foundation is ready

I will come and build upon it

and you can be assured that 

you all can face through the storms and waves together

because of all that you all have been through

now, are the rocks not essential 

to have made you all stronger and closer?"

Wooo~

Holding on to Him

Tears just flowed down my cheeks

in my heart i just know that everything is gonna be so right

simply because He is in control

and His ways higher than my ways

His thoughts higher than my thoughts

=D

Shouting to the mountain top?

Shouting to the mountain top?

There is a difference between being on a mountain top experience and shouting from the valley.

Have you forgotten the mountain top experiences? Times where you used to sit at the feet of Jesus, simply loving His presence. Cherishing every moment you have with Him. And experiencing what it means to be 'a day in His courts is better than a thousand years in the world'... The extreme times where we just want to be in the House of God more than being out there reaching the lost.

Then came about the 'Church without walls' and 'Cultural mandate'... Going into the marketplace. Going down the mountain top into the valleys to minister to the lost and lead the people to experience the mountain top.

Yet very often being in the valley, we are so concerned with the ministering and serving that we forgot about the open invitation from God and we just end up being in the valley and dwelling there. Shouting out to Him from the valley to the mountain top, hoping that God will hear us.

Are you lost in the valleys while ministering and serving? Have the Lord not gave us the invitation to always return back to the mountain top to experience Him anytime we want to? and lead the people around us to the mountain as well?

希望的種子

希望的種子

当你失去了梦想

亲爱的朋友

请你不要失望

当你失去了方向

亲爱的朋友

请你不要沮裳

就让我们停止抱怨和彷徨

一起来種下未来的希望

只要你用心灌溉

只要你耐心等待

種子就一定会发芽成长

一粒渺小的沙子

可以看见全世界

一点微弱的烛光

在黑暗中发出光芒

一颗希望的種子

可以雍有片森林

我们的 崭新的 未来

就既将要出航

Rap:

在憎恨之处番下仁爱

在伤害只处番下宽恕

在怀疑之处番下信心

在绝望之处番下盼望

在昏暗之处番下光明

在忧愁之处番下喜乐

原来你一直不曾离开

在我们身边一直陪着我们

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我觉得这样子写下去

我的华语进步了不少wor

haha

可是这首歌真的很meaningful

尤其是chorus的部分

i tink i better explain the reason in english... if not no one understand after i finish my post... hahaha... then no one blessed by it wor... =.=

anyway the song is about having the seed of hope... sometimes when things are not going well or just not the way you expected it to be... Do not be discouraged...

the chorus talks about the potential of a small beginning... a small sand, forms the earth... a gender light, brightens up the darkness... a seed of hope, brings forth the forest... as our future begins to blossom forth... 

And the word they used is like our dreams leaving the harbor, going into the world and make an impact... it reminds me of my SOT graduation... How we were illustrated as ships that were in the harbor preparing and building up... and finally on the day of graduation, ready to be sent out, into the real storms of life, as salt and light...

No matter what you are going through now... remember the potential in that seed of hope you have k... never despise a small beginning... because every big thing started small too... =)

Reminded of the seed i have sowed...

the seed of hope...

=D

*Hope this song will bless you as much as it has blessed me~!

My 21st Birthday Video

My 21st Birthday Video

Haha.. Sorry this is a super backdated video on my birthday celebration in Taiwan Emerge last year... Just managed to get it from my friend...

Muahaha.. For those of you who have disillusion that i am still and forever 21.... Hmm... Good to think that way la... So continue to slowly imagine hor... =X

And thanks to my beloved friends who are in Singapore who got me this 20 Cupcakes, birthday cake.. Hahaa... still remember how i rushed back for the last 5 minutes just to be with you all... cannot even be bothered that my whole luggage had gone missing and just dashed out of the airport... 

Hehe.. anyway sorry ar... Only posting them now cuz i only got them after one year also wor..

*Anyway my value still stands... "its not where i am or what  am doing, its who i spend it with that really matters wor.." =D

Spinning the Wheel of Life

 Spinning the Wheel of Life

Many times, people will want to do more and achieve more in life. Climbing their ministry ladders, career ladders etc, but yet very often they do not count the cost.

Our lives is never just revolving around ourselves, it involves our family members, love ones, friends, the people around us, the career we have, the way we manage our finances, the environment etc. Everything moves in a cycle and got to be in balance of each other. (Try to imagine it k, just like a plate balancing on a stick.) The over focusing or adding pressure on any one of the areas will cause the cycle to lose its function. It starts by slowing the whole cycle down and soon it breaks it all.

Every step upwards on any one of the areas, symbolizes a new level of expectations to meet, commitments to keep and responsibilities to hold. The sudden stepping up one area will also cause an imbalance to the cycle, hence there is a need to adapt to the stepping up very quickly. The best way to keep the balance is to constantly be stepping up on every area so that it helps the cycle to be moving as well.

Before you desire to go up to the next level in whatever you are doing, think about this:

1) Am i managing well with the expectations on me in this area right now?
The expectations from the one placed over us will always be higher then our own expectation of work. This is so in order to allow constant improvements to be made. It is only when the people above you have a higher expectation that what you can deliver you are constantly pushed to improve your standard of work.

So stop complaining that the person placed above you got expectations from you because it doesn't benefit the person for having expectations on you. When the expectations are not met the person still need to manage his/her anger and disappointment towards you. The expectations are placed there to help us be better. Until you stop complaining about the expectations above you and start working towards them, you will not be able to manage with the EVEN HIGHER expectations in the next level.

2) How committed am i to the commitments i am keeping rite now?

The commitments we have taken up through the times will only become more and more. Its not about getting rid of them, but to be keeping them and learning to enjoy them. Once you are able to enjoy doing it and committing to it with passion, it will no longer be considered as a commitment that you have to keep. It moves from committing to having it as part of your life.

If all you are doing is TRYING to stay committed and barely keeping to the commitments in your life or in that particular area, you will be so torn when more commitments comes along as you goes up to the next level.

3) Am i responsible over the things that authority is given to me?

Authority comes as we take responsibility. So are we taking up the rightful responsibilities over the things that we are given authority over or do we push the blame to others when something goes wrong. A leader never blames the member when they make mistakes for the first time because the leader have failed to teach them how. A pilot will not leave the crashing plane until all the other passengers have safely landed. Everything rises and fall on leadership.

You will only go up to the next level with more responsibilities added unto you, until you learn to take charge of what you are given. If not you will just be juggling with all the responsibilities in your hand, trying to catch each one before they falls.

*REMEMBER: It applies to EVERY AREA of our lives wor... Our family members, love ones, friends, the people around us, the career we have, the way we manage our finances, the environment etc. The reason why you MIGHT not be moving up to the next level is also directly and indirectly caused by the stagnating in the other areas... the ONLY way to keep the plate balance on the stick is to spin it~! =)